It has been 7 months since Eli was born. Our last month marker seems like a really long time ago. I'm not sure why. I was really geared up for the 6 month mark; it felt so important for some reason. This one was easier for me to take in. I felt more gratitude today and less pain. It was a peaceful and reflective day. In some ways I felt relief as I looked back on previous months....relief that somehow we made it through the first months alive.
I was very grateful for the token of love that Eli's cousins left on his grave. I'm not sure why it touched me so deeply; I guess I felt someone else's love for him. I felt that he has a place in not just my heart, but aunts and uncles and cousins and grandparent's and friends hearts as well. This is tremendously helpful to me. I am grateful for
his connection to other people in my family.
